Me, sarcastic? That seems to be the consensus...

sar·casm

[sahr-kaz-uhm] 

noun

1.Harsh or bitter derision or irony. Mocking, contemptuous, or ironic language intended to convey scorn or insult.

2. a sharply ironical taunt; sneering or cutting remark: a review full of sarcasms. The use or tone of such language.

Synonyms

1. sardonicism, bitterness, ridicule. See irony¹ . 2. jeer.

Does this describe me? 

I never thought so except for perhaps the occasional sarcastic remark for comedic effect.  In general I thought that people liked the happy go lucky 'clown' persona that I end up adopting when I am somewhat comfortable in a situation.  Others tend to not remember how reserved I am in a new setting.

All masks dropped, veils removed, and the lights turned on, I am a fairly shy.  Not super confident in myself. Overall pretty insecure.  All stemming from being ridiculed through twelve years of school.

Constantly concerned about what people thought of me, what they said to me, what they said to others about me...

To this day, I am extremely self conscious when in a new group or even a group of people that I am fairly comfortable with.

Needless to say, it is a bit disheartening when I find that the general feeling is that I could be described as 'sarcastic'...

To make it worse, already don't really feel accepted or part of the group.  

Perhaps this is why... 
Sarcasm, by definition, is regarded as negative.  Not something I necessarily want to be around.

I have been told my doppelganger is Sam Kinison.  I don't see the resemblance but maybe it is more about the harshness in his persona as well...  People tend to not 'get' him and take him the wrong way...

I understand that much of what I say is dry and people might not know if I am serious or not.  Not sure how to take me.

I can only hope that what turns out to be Hyperbole is confused with Sarcasm.
When people give me a compliment and I either say 'I know' or say it is because I am awesome. do I really mean that?  Am I that arrogant?  
No...  It is simply the facade I put up.  Inside I am constantly doubting my worth.

I have to wonder how often this has been the feeling of people I have met and worked with.
Is this why I am still single...  A sarcastic person is not the type that I would want to spend time with...
Is this why I always feel like the bonus onion ring...

I will probably be quiet for a few days, maybe longer, then the mask will go back on the persona that people expect (and want?) will be back, sarcastic, hyperbolistic, and the clown...

A gentleman in THE land of 'Gentleman Clubs'.

I had heard that Tampa had more 'gentleman's clubs', per capita, than any other place.

While driving today I think I passed 10 of them and it got me thinking.

Just on this list of 55, there are 32 that have a Tampa address.  This does not include any in Tampa that did not make the list or any additional outside of Tampa.

I am not making judgements about those who patronize the clubs or get their cash from said patrons.  To each his own.
Personally, I have not gone to one as I don't see the point.  Some may have heard my feelings on the subject but that is a whole other topic.

What was concerning me was, being a single guy looking for that special girl in a town with so many establishments of this type and therefore so many ladies being employed there. what are my chances of finding one that does not work at one.

Again, not judging but it might just be awkward introducing the lady to my family knowing what she does for a living.  Plus, not sure what I could offer her, should I happen to find one, with the money that I make, by comparison, and my job situation.

This all leads me to other questions...  Am I supposed to be in Tampa?  Should I be in another location with another job?  What is that job?  Is it in the theatre industry? 
Am I supposed to be in the theatre industry?  I don't think I would have been able to work as long as I have in the industry if this is not where I was supposed to be but it is difficult believe when it is so hard finding a job that wants to have me work for them full time and make a decent enough salary that I could support a family.  I didn't get into this industry to be rich but making enough to live comfortably would be nice.

Sorry for the tangent, I digress...

I realize that there are a lot of people in Tampa and in the Tampa area and I know a lot of girls that, to my knowledge, do not have a side job at one of the many clubs, but I can't help but wonder how many girls have I run into that have that second job or that is there only job...

Things that make you go hmmm...

Fat Tuesday! A time to be fat no more?

Edited to include some background for the newcomers...

Another Fat Tuesday has come and gone, so shall the fat that graces my body...

That is the plan anyway.

You guessed it.  It is time for New Lent 2013.

For those of you new to this... 
The New Lent is the opposite of your traditional Lent. Instead of giving something up for 40 days, you begin something for 45.  Preferably something that is a benefit to your life.  
Not just giving up pop/soda/tasty beverage, but drinking more water.  
Not giving up junk food, exercising.
You can read more about it in the link.

New Lent 2011 went well, as did New Lent 2012.

Me after working out during/after college...
That is the goal...

This year I am going to combine the previous two iterations in an attempt to lead a  healthier life and, to steal Lester Burnham's line from American Beauty, 'I want to look good naked.'

SO!  This year I will endeavor to drink more water.  The recommended 64 ounces a day.  Not only that, I will try to go beyond that and drink less tasty carbonated beverages.  I won't cut it out completely.  How can one watch a movie in the theater without drinking a very large, if over priced, glass of a tasty beverage...?

Additionally I will be working out (again)...  This time, unlike 2011, I have a exercise facilities readily available for me so there is not an excuse to not really get into it.

This should be fairly easier to accomplish as I will have some additional free time in a short 26 days.  If you don't know what I am talking about it is just as well.  I will take out that stress on the elliptical machine and/or the stacks of weight. 

As to the rules:
- I will consume, at least, 64 ounces of water prior to consuming any other type of beverage each day.
- Each day, I will do some type of work out.  I need to break a sweat.
- A 'day' is not over until I go to bed...  In general the exercise will be the first activity of the day.  If this is not ideal, it will take place later.  If I work out after midnight, it still counts for the day...
- Unlike traditional Lent, participants of The New Lent do not take off.  It is a seven day a week deal which means it runs for 45 days not the usual 40.

In years past, I asked for people to hold me accountable.  I was expected to post that I had worked out.  Friends would ask me daily to make sure I had or had made the plans to complete the task for the day.

I am not necessarily making that same request this year but if you have the desire to check up on me, feel free...

Update in 45 days, maybe before...