Me, sarcastic? That seems to be the consensus...

sar·casm

[sahr-kaz-uhm] 

noun

1.Harsh or bitter derision or irony. Mocking, contemptuous, or ironic language intended to convey scorn or insult.

2. a sharply ironical taunt; sneering or cutting remark: a review full of sarcasms. The use or tone of such language.

Synonyms

1. sardonicism, bitterness, ridicule. See irony¹ . 2. jeer.

Does this describe me? 

I never thought so except for perhaps the occasional sarcastic remark for comedic effect.  In general I thought that people liked the happy go lucky 'clown' persona that I end up adopting when I am somewhat comfortable in a situation.  Others tend to not remember how reserved I am in a new setting.

All masks dropped, veils removed, and the lights turned on, I am a fairly shy.  Not super confident in myself. Overall pretty insecure.  All stemming from being ridiculed through twelve years of school.

Constantly concerned about what people thought of me, what they said to me, what they said to others about me...

To this day, I am extremely self conscious when in a new group or even a group of people that I am fairly comfortable with.

Needless to say, it is a bit disheartening when I find that the general feeling is that I could be described as 'sarcastic'...

To make it worse, already don't really feel accepted or part of the group.  

Perhaps this is why... 
Sarcasm, by definition, is regarded as negative.  Not something I necessarily want to be around.

I have been told my doppelganger is Sam Kinison.  I don't see the resemblance but maybe it is more about the harshness in his persona as well...  People tend to not 'get' him and take him the wrong way...

I understand that much of what I say is dry and people might not know if I am serious or not.  Not sure how to take me.

I can only hope that what turns out to be Hyperbole is confused with Sarcasm.
When people give me a compliment and I either say 'I know' or say it is because I am awesome. do I really mean that?  Am I that arrogant?  
No...  It is simply the facade I put up.  Inside I am constantly doubting my worth.

I have to wonder how often this has been the feeling of people I have met and worked with.
Is this why I am still single...  A sarcastic person is not the type that I would want to spend time with...
Is this why I always feel like the bonus onion ring...

I will probably be quiet for a few days, maybe longer, then the mask will go back on the persona that people expect (and want?) will be back, sarcastic, hyperbolistic, and the clown...

A gentleman in THE land of 'Gentleman Clubs'.

I had heard that Tampa had more 'gentleman's clubs', per capita, than any other place.

While driving today I think I passed 10 of them and it got me thinking.

Just on this list of 55, there are 32 that have a Tampa address.  This does not include any in Tampa that did not make the list or any additional outside of Tampa.

I am not making judgements about those who patronize the clubs or get their cash from said patrons.  To each his own.
Personally, I have not gone to one as I don't see the point.  Some may have heard my feelings on the subject but that is a whole other topic.

What was concerning me was, being a single guy looking for that special girl in a town with so many establishments of this type and therefore so many ladies being employed there. what are my chances of finding one that does not work at one.

Again, not judging but it might just be awkward introducing the lady to my family knowing what she does for a living.  Plus, not sure what I could offer her, should I happen to find one, with the money that I make, by comparison, and my job situation.

This all leads me to other questions...  Am I supposed to be in Tampa?  Should I be in another location with another job?  What is that job?  Is it in the theatre industry? 
Am I supposed to be in the theatre industry?  I don't think I would have been able to work as long as I have in the industry if this is not where I was supposed to be but it is difficult believe when it is so hard finding a job that wants to have me work for them full time and make a decent enough salary that I could support a family.  I didn't get into this industry to be rich but making enough to live comfortably would be nice.

Sorry for the tangent, I digress...

I realize that there are a lot of people in Tampa and in the Tampa area and I know a lot of girls that, to my knowledge, do not have a side job at one of the many clubs, but I can't help but wonder how many girls have I run into that have that second job or that is there only job...

Things that make you go hmmm...